It’s not always easy to find direction in life, especially when you’re living through an event as challenging as a worldwide pandemic.
Lately, I’ve been asking myself the question: How do I want to live?
As I’ve gotten older, I’ve become more keenly aware of time passing and that my time on this Earth is not infinite. However, due to the current situation, my thoughts on how I want to spend each day grow more urgent.
Sometimes major life events bring clarity to these types of thoughts, but this pandemic has had the opposite effect. Do I want to run somewhere safe, drop out of society and live a life dedicated to the land, without a concern for personal development? Or do I want to stay in the city, pushing harder for change and continuing to evolve? Both choices have merit, and both hold a lot of appeal.
It’s in these times that I turn to my pen and journal.
I allow myself to write freely, never censoring my thoughts or reigning in my ramblings. I explore every direction my heart wants to travel. The blank pages of my journal never judge my thoughts and feelings, they only lend a safe space to express myself.
Every day I ask myself the same question: How do I want to live?
And every day I pour my heart and soul on to the page. I’ve not yet come to the answer, but the muddy waters are clearing.
Somedays other questions tumble out, like:
- What’s most important to me?
- Can I have everything I want?
- What really matters?
- What legacy do I want to leave?
- How can I help our ailing world?
- How can I be of service to people?
It’s like falling down Alice’s rabbit hole, but’s it’s a hole worth tumbling into.
It’s only by following the questions of our soul that we find direction in life. Living on the surface of things got us into this mess. If we’re serious about living an intentional life then down the rabbit hole, we must go.
The only way to find direction in life is to take time.
Give yourself permission to look deeper and answer the questions of your soul. Don’t expect the answers to come quickly, maybe they will, but more likely not. Sit with your discomfit. Sift through the thoughts and emotions.
The path will become more evident, and the moment will come when you need to take the first step. But first, allow your soul to speak.